HAPPINESS-A STATE OF MIND

Sitting @ my desk at my work place,i find so much has changed.From what i was a couple of  years back to what i am today.      
Nothing is perfect still .I do have problems like everyone else.My Finances,Relations,Health e.t.c are all just normal like everybody z (Like a gamblers Wad of cash.. ever fluctuating). Nothing too good,nothing too bad.
But that is not the change i am talking about.
Its Self Respect,Confidence,Self Worth.
Yes it's all this i now realize I've missed in  the years that have gone past.
I now see that i am a more calm ,composed person all together.
I smile more often now.
I now see everything in a lighter shade of thought .
Nothing aggravates me like it used to before.
I do know that Happiness is tagged just as a duration of time when things are good.
But i think its much simpler and ever present than that..
Happiness lies in accepting the situation you are in,in having a determined outlook that this period of low is just temporary,in being satisfied with what situation is presented or may befall us and in knowing that the passage of time inexorably changes everything.
Happiness is thus a State of mind.
There is no limit to Wealth.
But Wealth and Power cannot buy you happiness.
Lives of Many of the Worlds greatest and most powerful people teach us that happiness is a jewel that everybody can have but only the ones who are prepared to accept and receive it have.
A family of 3 living in 10 Downing in Central London or along the French Riviera  might look happier than a family of 5 in a small cramped one roomed slum/shack in Dharavi.
But this is not always true.If one is ready to find joy in small things such as family,love,sharing,laughter e.t.c. every other obstacle no matter how enormous or persistent seems small,and thus Happiness is found. 
A rock is a rock
If left by the lake, is no different from itself if it were placed in a museum.It never seizes to be a rock.
Yes the rock may be polished,may bask in neon glow but it is still a rock.
You will remain who you are inside no matter what the situation is.
So Never Worry, be Happy
THE BEST IS YET TO COME .

Ventilation

Alone,trapped and secluded is all i feel amidst the scores of people around me!
i have had issues with my friends!,they dont have faith in me... i do not understand y i am the source of their insecurity..
being true to myself .. i have done nothing wrong to them, never meant any harm but i still am made a target of insecurity.. and i am ousted .... with no specific reasons at all...
i take this in my stride and think itz just a phase and i will be back ...
i enter depression ... i hate myself , the condition i am in and all thats around me... i build a wall around me ... not knowing if its me in pain or the world trying t crush me..
i met this girl last year through a mutual friend... Pretty as the morning light upon the horizon
eyes like the jewels of the seas , smile t die for... these physical attributes add upto nothin in comparision to her personality.... i WAS in love... i fell 4 her.. and let her know..
we could not be together because of some differences...
That girl is back into my life.. me having gone through 3 antagonizing months of rehab from love , had t face her again
this calls for a herculian task of keeping wayward of any emotions watsoever that may sprout up with her around...
i now have this distinct yet faint smile on my face.. i doubt that she likes me , or does she?
its a question that haunts meh every second i think o her or anything even remotely related to her..
The trust i laid in friendship let me down but i am not going to let go so easily..
trust once lost cannot be found again..
one has to start from scratch..which i do not have the power to do...
i try to talk myself into believing that everything is fine... but i am drawn nearer. to the harsh reality that i am responsible for what i am or what position i am in today..
i am in a place where the language is not of my choosing.. i have to compromise,adjust and compromise again..
i feel i am an outsider... which i am but try to blend in ... blend i do but wen i need someone , a friend. i find none next to me.
here friendship is like onstage romance... it only works wen the camera is rolling.
Public relations screwed with my head. could not decide who t keep happy and content and who to dissapoint and disreguard..
i want to be random,i want to cry out loud ,fall,keep falling and stargaze...
with nothing in my mind... i cannot envision what tomorrow will bring but only hope for a day better than today than this moment of self loathing or pity..
my weakness is i care too much... these scars remind me that the past is real..
I used to care less of what people thought of me but now i clear the ground before taking a step...
Is it all in the head or is this just a part of life !!
This is what they mean when they look at a child and say he or she looks soo innocent coz later on no one is ... we all are guilty of either doing wrong or doing nothing wen wrong was done to us or others before us...
All i want to do is Live life carefree and on my own terms .. i aim to make money and spare time to spend it all..
Live life to the fullest with no regrets or any remorse of whats gone past,just the Haunts or joys of the Next hour in sight.

What has changed.?????????

20 years... is a long span...

well im 20 years old...or should i say young.....

looking bak.....i see dat ..... so much has changed...

i used to think i was the only one in the world .... who was real.... everything around me was made up...for my believing.......I used to think children were born after marriage just like dat....(now i know "dat aint true alright"... lol)...

i had a different perception on god....on religion....on politics...on every thing.....

i though there was no such thing as evil or good...

i din know dat"not everyone who shits on u is ur enemy...and...

not everyone who takes you out of shit is ur friend"...

i knew not bak then that...girls would become cuter and would play hard to get in real time......

peeping under skirts was played off as a joke...now its blue eye'able.....

we learnt wat we should do and what not...we lost our freedom and gained some as well...

we were taught ...hate not thy neighbour....

but now...i dont mind if he dies.....ill have t compete with one less of a person...

i never...thought love would hurt.....

couldnt believe the lyrics of common Pyaar filled hindi songs...till i came t realization and it dawned upon me.....dat shit is real ...

status and stature..came into existance out of nowhere....

thought every one was the same...but i was wrong....

corruption started from birth...we learned t hate.......

Never thought people could fake so much to gain a little...

....

as i wind up i see...

'nothing has changed....only now i know that there are things that i did not know of...they just came into existence 4 me.....'

Dancing .... Language of the expressive soul...

Sa re ga ma pa dha ni sa.

Do Rey mi fa so la ti do.

Boom Boom Pow.

.........These are the sounds of music,melody,vibe,....for some.. this is the meaning of life....

It is rightly said that actions speak louder than words...

Dance.meaning..a sport of moving ones body to music or melody.

but it holds a much deeper meaning ....

It is the language of the expressive soul....

One feeling lonely or sad expresses oneself by swaying..by moving swiftly..or just stepping to and fro..

The Flirts will..move to impress and show off their skills on foot....

The Old couple will do the close waist to shoulder dance..and move softly...

The Romantic ones will..be the hottest on the floor with a wide range of steps and various air lifts....

The Poppers will be the crowd pullers..lockin and popin..their way..into the night..

The hopeless ones try to ape their party-mates...try to move like they do but though they might not look good doing it ,they do feel good...

And then there are those who dance like no one else is watching ..they put their all into it ,,its like a feeling of being high!!! they have no concerns....they never think about (what mom said,,What their girl was complaining about,or what problems one has with their boy friends)

all these thoughts are blocked off...

it is not a compulsion 4 u to know how to move and grove properly...learnin is nothin but feeling good about ur self....

but if u wanna learn..then hey!, whatever makes you happy!!!!!!!!

because it is just a way of expression...u do not need to be guided...they are your expressions...

.....Do remember that...

OPPORTUNITIES IN LIFE DANCE WITH THOSE ALREADY ON THE DANCE FLOOR!!!!!!!

Watya waitin 4 get ur dancin shoes on and let the music play..........

Through the eyes of a backpacker....

A place is best described by a traveler on foot......
finding' time and deciding to get packing and get out ...that's what is called the traveling spirit
...getting Ur backpack ready and fastening da bag over ur shoulders....u get a feeling of growing wings ...u wish u could fly....well though capital is a bit of a problem, you say t urself..."hey i can hitch a ride"..coz uve got no one with you to tag along so u don't need t bother. well moving around places u get to see all kinds of people...there are those who talk politely and then there are those who hate ur guts, and give hostile remarks ..but being an outsider calls 4 a special ability to take in any sorts o hostile taunts or things like that..but that's the fun of it .......
on ur way if u spot a hottiee u try t make excuses t talk t him r her...u go to them and ask a random question ....can i know what time it is.....(though u have a phone and a watch..u still do):-P
or u ask " excuse me, may i know which bus am i to take to get to so n so"....u talk 4 a minute and feel happy that u got a story t tell t ur pals bak home and elsewhere (u can always add spice to the story..);-P
u see people quarreling outside of a store and make up ur own stories of how they could have started the fight but still keep walkin ....
the idea of all of this is to get ur head outta ur daily boring chores and your monotonous lives ...
seeing new places and meeting new people gets ur mind going on how different ppl from different families and different casts or creeds work in harmony with the city...the crowd is what gets the city to life...thus you tend to assess the differences uve found in the people..from city to city thus you look at the larger picture...u get the idea that all the cities are also together..cos a place is what the people make of it....
thus is this all ..i dont think so!!! coz u dont know what u will notice on the next curve....so
GET PACKIN!!!!!!!

if i had a time machine......

What if .....You had a time machine and could use it only for one trip....
Well.....what would i do??....NOTHING!!!!!.....
Because ...im not sure wat i would do or say if i went bak and met Gandhi.......tell him how his dreamz suked big tym......or tell Martin luther king..that ppl only spoke about him but never tried to live his dream..
Would i go bak to Newton and make him eat that apple and shut the hell up.....
would i go to Boston and stop those planes from taking off.....
well the truth is i would have gone to times wen i wanted to say something or do something but could not muster ma guts bak den and live the moment again...but would it change my present...would i still be where i am....will i look like me..or become the Shadow of my own life.....
thus i would not take the risk coz i may not be happy with how things are going...
but im okey with it coz..im content with what i have or am....
well what would you do..........GOD SPEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life as we know it.

Well ...life can be a bitch and can also be an angel at the same time...U think things are going the way u planned them to be..but then waitup Mr,ur in for a surprise coz jus around the corner there is something that is gonna screw ur happiness..wishing for the pain to pass only makes it worse.
One needs to feel the pain and get up again.
People might tell you what to do and wat not to,but though u think u wont screw up this time ur subconscious mind does something that u refuse to take responsibility for..it goes like "i don't know how it happened but i tried".....
The truth is that we should stop living in others shadows and face who we are,be it any thing.Being oneself can be bad in some cases but it cant get worse.Pretending t be what we are not will get onto us some day.Thus being true to oneself is what matters,bcoz others are just variables in this equation called life..........